January 6, 2012

It's Friday!

Thank goodness for the short week! It's nice that Friday rolled around so quickly.

Today was yet another hard day. Isn't it true that the hardest days after changing a habit are the third and fourth days? I think I heard that somewhere once, and today and yesterday, I surely lived it. I stopped at nothing and everything to get inspired today to keep at it. I read fitness blogs, I looked at old pictures of when I felt good about myself and I read success stories on My Fitness Pal. I also drew strength from knowing that soon enough this change will become a habit and every day that I work towards my goal is an extra drop in the bucket.

However, here is a list of things/thoughts that cross my mind and tried to deter me today:
  • After work I went to CVS and passed by the candy isle. It's in the front by the registers and it has all kinds of candy. I saw a lot of chocolate and I caught myself thinking, "Oooh! I should get that!" However, I soldiered on and paid for my things and when I got back to my car, I ate the apple I hadn't had earlier like I should have.
  • There was a cheese and cracker platter at work. I love cheese. I stayed away from the breakroom.
  • I wanted to put parmesan on my meal tonight. This one is more out of habit. I know full well that the parmesan cheese doesn't do anything for my meal. I really can't taste it unless I eat it alone. This was just because I'm used to blanketing my entire meal in fluffy parmesan cheese.
  • The Diet Cokes in the fridge. I was craving a cold one this afternoon on my lunch break. You might be wondering why I don't just have the diet coke because it has zero calories. Truth is, for me Diet Coke tastes better with cheese-its or goldfish. Another habit I developed...watching TV, drinking a diet coke and eating Goldfish.
Despite these thoughts...I kept on track!

And with that, today was another deficit of 510 calories. I did a shorter, less effortless workout than usual because my stepson came home today and we both used the Wii together.

I also made sure I drank plenty of water. I drank 96 ounces of water not including my morning coffee.

For the most part this is a mental thing. I'm having to break habits that I picked up over the last 3 years. Habits that tasted so good...hahaha!

I will persevere though. I want to look as good on the outside as I feel on the inside. I like me, and I want that to show on the outside as well. I want to feel proud of myself again.

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